It's the middle of the night and I'm awake, I'm find myself beset by a Greek chorus in my head, of what I call my "3 AM Thoughts." These are when the little voices of negative self-talk all come out and start to assail me.
Rehashing the errors of the day; pointing out patterns of self-destructive behavior; magnifying ever personal flaw until the conclusion should be obvious: that society will never accept one; rehashing the errors of days twenty years past...
In short all the insecurities past and present come out to play, and there's just something about this hour that leaves them magnified.
Everyone I've ever mentioned the expression "3 AM Thoughts" to has known exactly what I meant by them, and I do take comfort in knowing they're a pretty common phenomenon.
Why am I posting about them, now? Simple really. This post isn't for you, the reader - though I welcome your comment and thoughts about these lousy character assassins. This post is my opportunity to communicate one thought back to the greek chorus, with the sincere hope that the little bastards choke on it:
You lie! Even when you tell the truth you present facts in such a distorted manner it becomes a lie.
And you bastards have no power over me.
Thank you for your time, and I hope everyone has a good night.